I don’t blame anyone for my recent feeling or emotion

I’m blaming myself, for being such an idiot, for thinking evrything with my point of view, trying to explain everything with my own words, without knowing what others may think or feel about my words

I’m blaming myself, for being such a coward, because I can’t show my emotion and my feeling, because I don’t want any other people feel sad or disappointed, so I rather hurt myself than other

I’m blaming myself, for being such an egoist. I won’t, I can’t, I don’t think sharing my pain, my sadness, my heartache, my sorrow, and any other bad feeling with other, just because I don’t want them to suffer

I’m blaming myself, for being such a cold-hearted, for not telling other people what I really want, what I really need, but want them to know what inside my head

I’m blaming myself, because I’m really forgetfull, because I won’t remember my mistakes for all the things I mentioned above, for not remembering my past feelings, for forgetting my hatred, my rage, my loneliness which has been aching inside my heart